When I reflected again, I realized that 11 years ago, I already deeply longed for companionship.
Back then, I expressed it to my mom many times— I didn’t want to go out with family. I only wanted to be with friends.
But at the time, I didn’t understand how strong that longing was.
Maybe that’s why I fear losing friends. Even if some of them are just casual friends, For me, even short-lived friendships feel like real companionship.
I really wanted to say a few words to everyone, But the internet kept cutting out. I couldn’t even finish a single sentence.
Everyone left. I was overwhelmed by a sense of despair. It felt like I was being abandoned.
