Before December 28, 2025, after my first Osatou...

After my first Osatou, I roughly understood my situation. But it wasn’t until the following year that I realized what I truly wanted. I was just deceiving myself, pretending I had a good Osatou. I fell into the belief that without companionship, I couldn’t survive. I kept lying to myself that I had a Osatou back then. When I was with the second group of people, that was my best time. The three of them were also my best companions. But companionship cannot last forever—after we split apart, I kept searching for companionship, for a place I could belong. Maybe it was because I had closed myself off for too long. I started feeling inferior, lacking confidence, unable to trust anyone. That made it harder for me to express myself later on. But after coming into contact with VRC, I slowly began to realize that deep down, I truly longed for someone to accompany me, to know me, to understand me. Yet when I tried to express it, I was too direct. The other person must have felt uncomfortable. In the end, I didn’t get much interaction, and naturally, no emotional connection. So the other person wouldn’t develop any affection. But… I can’t go back to the feeling of having no companionship. By Copilot translate

還記得去年 我認識的那位女生 我之前跟他是有機會的 但我害怕退縮了 那時我也還在傷痛中還沒出來 自己那時又沒自信,害怕傷害到別人