December 29, 2023 I read his post

These past two and a half months, why haven’t I found a chance to tell him about my recent situation? Except for the part where I was excluded, because of what he wrote on Twitter, I don’t know what to say anymore. Whatever I say, it’s wrong. Is he making things difficult for me?

Believe me, if I say directly, “Yes, I’m a failure as a person because of some of your words. They made me afraid to talk to you and defend myself. Are you happy now?” But I really don’t want to tell him what I wrote. It was conveyed to him by someone else. I already know that I’m a failure as a person, and I’m not good at expressing myself. I’ll only make things worse.

Unless he can handle what I want to say, I want to say these things. Last time I wanted to talk to him, he gave me the impression that he didn’t want to listen. In the end, I could only say a few words and couldn’t express myself completely. What I originally wanted to say made him feel that I felt excluded and that’s why I cried to him in the past two months. But that’s not the truth.

I think it’s time to say it. I really want to tell him everything I said before and now. However, I’m afraid of making things worse and that he won’t be able to listen. By Copilot translate