December 19, 2023 I told him

I wanted to tell him:

I don’t know how to apologize to you. That day, why did I tell friend A that I thought friend A wanted to know the follow-up before I told him? Later, friends B and C came to me when I was executing in the background of jumping out of the window. I knew it only when friend B made a sound. They had been there for a long time. When I heard friend B, I was scared and said directly that you were planning your itinerary. It also includes previous things. It was my fault to let you wait until two o’clock in the morning. I didn’t tell you the time clearly, and I couldn’t listen to you. In addition, I figured out what I wanted. I wanted to have a sense of companionship and recognition.

There is also the matter of me being excluded.

But I still only said that I was excluded by them. The feeling of the former Osatou is: What does it have to do with me? But I still said what I wanted to say and didn’t keep it in my heart.

It seems that I have become a person who can’t explain things clearly again. I said that the former Osatou thought I was using him as a prop and didn’t want to maintain a relationship with him. If I didn’t say anything, he would think that I didn’t care about him. What does the former Osatou want me to do? I don’t rule out that I have a problem, otherwise he wouldn’t be like this. It feels really uncomfortable. By Copilot translate