November 17, 2019 Negative Post-65

November 17, 2019 I feel like I might have autism, perhaps more significantly than depression. Many things make me uncomfortable when someone is around, even at work. Additionally, my speech can be unclear and stuttered. This might be because my mother was busy working when I was younger and didn't have time to talk to me. Over time, this has led to my current state. There are times when I really dislike speaking, especially when I hear my voice in a recording. If I hear myself, I feel repulsed and even consider editing or removing my voice. However, when I speak English or Japanese, it's not as bad, and I feel that my voice fits better. I prefer to stay quiet and use text to communicate. I seem to only enjoy speaking when I know someone is willing to listen. While speaking, I don't feel like my tone is strange, but upon playback, I realize it's not how I perceived it. It seems like I can't speak with a normal tone like most people. Even when I speak slowly, it's still hard for others to understand me. I am confident that I have autism; it's just that my mother didn't notice because she was busy with work. 2019.11.17, 10:25 PM By ChatGPT translate