After going out with friends and returning, I felt the urge to vomit (is this the feeling?). Originally, going out with family made me feel resentful, and now, going out with friends is starting to evoke a sense of aversion. It seems that my previous statement to friends, expressing my fear of losing friendships after moving, was actually a fear of personal issues (I'm starting to feel aversion towards going out with friends), resulting in a lack of communication and the subsequent loss of friendships.
