June 22, 2024 I do this every time

I later understood, I later didn't dare to speak with the mic on because of something that happened recently. I say recently, but actually, it happened six months ago, in November last year. After I found out the reason, I started to blame myself and asked others for their opinions.

Another person, who is also my friend, I feel like I set a bad example because she went to ask others for their opinions and came to tell me their views and reasons. For a few days, I was using another VRC account. She said that when she felt I was almost ready, I could go back to my original account. Later, she said I was almost ready and should try talking to others. After that, in March, I went back to find them. But later, I mostly didn't go to her, and I misunderstood her meaning. She felt like I was no longer her friend. I thought about it and said something I regret.

I said, "Maybe I just saw you as a friend to talk about music with. Also, at that time, I misunderstood what you meant. It was my fault for not going to you later." After saying that, a few hours later, I started to regret and blame myself. Why am I always so bad at explaining these complicated reasons? I think of it perfectly, but what I say isn't good.

I became even more withdrawn, especially in terms of speaking because this is not the first time it has happened. My ability to handle awareness is not very good. I didn't realize what I said, what impact it brought, and what consequences it would have. This happens every time. By Chatgpt translate