January 6, 2024 is no longer like before

I feel like a friend of mine doesn’t chat with me as much as before… Of course, the bad thing to say is that it’s my own problem. The good thing to say is that we just can’t find a topic to chat about. I feel that the current situation is not like the previous year. The bad thing to say is, yes, you all have someone to accompany you, I don’t, I’m pitiful. The good thing to say is, people change.

I still have other places to accompany me, but I can’t communicate with them at the moment. The main thing is interaction. I have to be prepared. Everyone will have their own plans. I have to practice English and Japanese to be able to speak independently. I also have to learn to restrain myself. My EQ is very low. I also have to learn.

I’m a bit pessimistic. I think the current situation is caused by my behavior. I was inexplicably disliked before, but no one told me why. Now someone told me, so I think maybe it’s my behavior. People who have been sweetened before have also deleted my friends…

I need guidance too much… But after being guided, I still don’t understand.

I’ve said that I want to feel recognized. Maybe I’ve been recognized, but I didn’t realize it.

And a friend told me: “It’s not about being recognized, it’s about proving yourself. You have to rely on yourself to work hard to prove it. You don’t lack recognition. You’ve been recognized too much. But the final result is that you don’t have the courage to prove it. You don’t have a realization. The only thing left in the end is regret and pity. You are eager to be recognized again. Over time, it will naturally become annoying.”

And I told my friend: “I think your EQ is very high, because you pointed out my problem in a moment. It’s amazing.”

Indeed, I was told that I was strong, but I denied it. I dare not confidently prove myself. This is an example, but in most cases, I have been denying and proving myself. I have worked very hard, but I feel that I just can’t do it.

I don’t know what I’m afraid of, what I’m inferior to, I want to be recognized on the one hand, and I dare not prove myself on the other. It’s contradictory.

Maybe what I want to hear is “Hold me and tell me, you’ve worked hard.”

I played a game for 10 years, and I suddenly got the hang of it. I worked so hard for so long, but what I got was something others already knew.

There’s not so much time for me to learn. I have to force myself to get sick…

Sorry, the more I think about it…

About that friend, the previous Osatou told me that the friend told him that he only had him A sugar, I would run over, he thought I was annoying and couldn’t read the air.

This is also what Osatou told me, so I knew.

You have to be able to read the air, and the previous Osatou also told me many times.

But actually, as long as you tell me directly, you don’t want to be disturbed, I will leave.

If you don’t tell me, it will only make me think wildly. I will also feel that this is not excluding me.

And another one also told me, so now only when he and B sugar, even if it is F+ room, I now avoid adding in. Unless it’s someone I know, I might join in, because it’s happened before, I don’t want it to happen again.

I added it just because I wanted to be able to accompany and chat. I would feel that if it was like before, but it would be like this, it was caused by me. I need to learn to restrain and learn the seriousness of things.

I can’t blame all the mistakes on myself, but I just feel that the current situation is caused by me.

Ha, that friend blocked me.

Block it if you want to block it.

The second person in VRChat who blocked me.

That friend is not the one who is excluded. Yesterday, I wanted to touch him and flashed twice, so I stopped. Today, I wanted to pat him. His Avatar looked good, but he blocked me.

I clearly said before that I’m not very good at reading the air.

If you are offended by my behavior, you can tell me honestly. I won’t be so angry. Let me know.

But it’s not directly telling me, then how do I know?

I even asked, but I didn’t want to tell me, is this a knot in my heart? Later he unblocked me By Copilot translate