July 29, 2018 The beginning of melancholy

July 29, 2018 The beginning of melancholy I often tell my friends, "If you think I'm annoying, tell me," but usually, they don't respond immediately. A friend of 8 years, named "Yuzu," mentioned that I've changed a lot in a short period, around 2 and a half years. However, sometimes I still refer to a "common ailment."

In the past, uttering a certain statement resulted in an 87% likelihood of being blocked. Later, I reflected on my past actions and motivations. Long-term exposure to a bullying environment has affected my communication skills. So, expressing a single statement with an 87% block probability has become a triggering point, as I don't have many friends. I've tried discussing movies or politics, but there's often no response. Subsequently, I turned to watching anime to learn about communication, although it's not a panacea.

To clarify, during my primary and secondary school years, I faced communication difficulties due to bullying, leading me to offend people, intensify self-reflection, and receive little response from real-life friends. Currently, I lack real-life friends for regular conversations, and this has become a "common ailment." This situation has led me to share my thoughts and frustrations with online friends, turning it into a recurring theme with seemingly no solution. Even when criticized, I express frustration, describing it as a "second-degree fire." I haven't explicitly stated the resolution of my "common ailment." By ChatGPT translate