2023年11月13日 おそらくそれは議論です。

was in the same world as Osatou, and I was writing next to him. He disconnected three times, and I wrote three times. I got angry and told my friend A about it. Later, I calmed down and thought that maybe Osatou had crashed or had a bad internet connection. Friend A later replied, “I think you should let her rest first. Maybe she has some reason or really bad internet connection.” I also told friend A that I should calm down and think that way.

The third time Osatou disconnected, he ran to another world, and I followed. I heard Osatou discussing an itinerary with friends over the microphone, which was not yet confirmed. At that time, I also told friend A why I said that. I thought friend A wanted to know the follow-up, so I told him. Later, friends 2 and C came while I was running in the background with Osatou. It was only when friend B spoke that Osatou and I knew they had been there for a long time. When I heard friend B’s voice, I immediately said that Osatou was planning the itinerary. I did this because I was scared by friend B and didn’t know what to say. I relied on my intuition to say that Osatou was planning the itinerary.

After friend B left, Osatou started to get angry and scolded me. He said he was using a large menu to cover me. I turned around and said that was enough. Osatou said, “Is that enough?!” At that time, I didn’t think about it. I should have changed to another Osatou avatar that I don’t often see. That’s why I didn’t use my usual Karin avatar in front of Osatou yesterday (2023.11.20) and Sunday (2023.11.19).

I had a fight with Osatou, or rather, he scolded me, and he was no longer Osatou. I was very sad at the time. I really blamed myself, and I even let the former Osatou breathe hard because I saw his condition and thought he needed care, but I did it wrong. I also said, “My mother and her boyfriend mentioned that they want to come to Taoyuan for the Chinese New Year. If I am forced to go, I will want to find you.”

Later, Osatou was still angry and asked me why I told friend A that I was planning an itinerary and that it was still uncertain. He said that even if friend B heard it, it would be fine. Later, Osatou said he didn’t want to see me and hated me. He also said that his internet was bad today and kept disconnecting. I said it was okay. Later, friend D came, and Osatou said that the conversation was over and ran to another world. I hugged friend D, and friend D went to sleep. Then I left VR.

At that time, I should have said that the reason could be more implicit, and any excuse would do. Otherwise, it would become a situation where I had no choice but to find you because I couldn’t do anything else.

In addition, many people told me and former Osatou that they were angry about my behavior. I think they are right. How have I offended many people over the years, and even been bullied? I am already 24 years old, but I still don’t think about how my behavior will offend people at the moment. I think I should leave VRChat for a month to sort out my thoughts.

“I think I should leave VRChat for a month” is what I said. But now I am eager to communicate and interact with people. I am no longer the person who can go without communicating with anyone for more than a year six years ago.

The first time I tried it because both sides didn’t understand. But the second time, I hurt him.

I will never have a third Osatou in my life. By ChatGPT translate