# December 16, 2018 Negative Post-13

December 16, 2018\
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Regarding only using the desk lamp and not turning on the main light at night, it's because the main light feels uncomfortable, and indeed, using only the desk lamp provides a greater sense of security. During the day, I don't close the curtains, and I rely on my computer rather than my phone. Nowadays, I rarely play games; it's mostly watching videos.

In social situations, I tend to avoid or be polite about certain topics. I don't want others to worry about my condition. I only let specific people know (online, not in real life). In social gatherings, I do tend to overplay and conceal my emotions, even with specific people.

My sleep situation is very complicated. Sometimes I sleep for 10 hours, 7 hours, or even less. I feel energetic when I sleep late and wake up early. There have been times when I've slept only a few hours or not at all, yet felt energetic. I can maintain energy without relying on stimulants, but I start feeling tired in the afternoon.

Due to various factors like the environment and emotions, I sometimes struggle to fall asleep, sleeping only a few hours or not at all, even if I've had a full 10 hours of sleep. By evening, I'm even more tired. My sleep situation is truly complicated, and it would take a lot of time to explain. After reading that article, I suddenly felt like crying. Changing my sleep patterns seems challenging, and even if I try, it might disrupt my circadian rhythm.\
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